Acquisition

I've just recently realized that manipulation is the only way to actually get what you want. Doing it any other way is often times a long, boring, and tiresome effort. On the other hand, manipulation is an art form. You are in total control of the flow and outcome of the situation you've assumed command over. So why be honest when it's far more intriguing to be manipulative and moachevious? Thus, I've decided to devote a copious amount of time to developing a silver tongue and the acquisition of unparalleled control over the human mind. Follow me on this journey of enlightenment if you will.

Infinite Sighs & the Multiverse

When I talk to people, I speak to them as if I'm talking to myself. As if I'm incessantly thinking to myself out loud. Maybe I wonder too much. There are just so many questions I have that have seemingly infinite answers. If only there was one course of action. With so many possible roads to take one can only hope to brace themselves for perpetual, inevitable failure. Still knowing of the existence of failure, I move on. See, waiting for some definite path to make itself clear will get me nowhere. I've got to just choose a path and run until I reach its end and hope that along the way I stumble upon some fabulous mess of an answer that makes no logical sense but can still be understood for what it is; a moment in time that presented a chance at some sort of success.

Endings

Ever been in a relationship that's not really a relationship but has the feel of one. You fight off feelings because from the beginning you knew it wasn't meant to be anything serious...well at least you thought you knew. Anyway you're both enjoying yourselves then the other goes and ruins it. Sudden and without warning. You don't know what to think because everything was going so well. When they go they leave you feeling hollow and confused and just totally lost. You don't know what happened and you constantly question yourself and analyze everything that happened. So what do you do when you find that nothing went wrong and you still can't get the closure you need. You can't ask the other person for fear of humiliating yourself and on top of that you're not on speaking terms with them anymore....so what? What happened? Why did something that was seemingly going so great suddenly come to an end if nothing feaseably went wrong. Quite the debacle.

Beginnings

He met a girl. That's how it usually starts. Let's put that on hold though. How does one tell what sort of relationship will form between himself/herself and another person? Are there signs? Is there a feeling? Of course, it's the presence we give off and the words we say that determine the relationship. Manipulation is an inevitable constant in its formation and throughout its duration. So, the question is not whether there are signs or feelings, but what kind of manipulation exists and its intended purpose. What deceptive little bastards we all are :K

Innocence

Sometimes things happen to you whether it be mental, emotional, or physical. This happening causes you too reflect on things that have happened in the past or are currently in motion. Let me tell you a short story of a boy desperately trying to claw himself from the depths of the bottomless pit he set himself up to fall into. But maybe he likes it down there and the attempt to escape it is a false hope acting as a sedative for the part of him that hopes it will one day break free. I'll leave the divulging of the truth to you.

Why world...why

Valentine's Day. Everyone is meant to cozy up to loved ones and pseudo loved ones in an attempt to satisfy the atmosphere this day brings. I didn't ask for a valentine, merely for there to be an opportunity to gain one. Why is it, then, that everyone I want is either taken or otherwise previously engaged eh? Is it too much to ask for a free soul? Someone openly available to reciprocating desire. That's why I say it's best to wait for things to come to you. That is the only definite way to know it's ready to be accepted wholeheartedly.

tsk tsk

Don't you hate it when people give you attitude for things that are clearly not your fault? Hypothetical situation: say you call your job to find out your schedule and they tell you that you are only working Saturday but then call on Sunday to ask you why you aren't at work because they suddenly threw another day on your schedule without letting you know. Bitch move no? So you explain to them what happened and they still continue to give you attitude because of their own obvious incompetence and inconsideration. It's a menial job with meager pay that isn't a gateway to any future financial prospects. Tsk tsk.